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New Year Message!
Posted on January 3, 2012, by Jawed Amir, under Blog, General.
… there are things that couldn’t learn in school and college. No one can even teach you, they comes with maturity by the time. some people are so immature that they don’t even accept that,
People they think they are cool but the mirror always laugh on them,
People they think everything start and end by their name where names itself ashamed of them,
Some think that they are the master, where no one is,
Once you put I in your attitude that will destroy you to the core,
Money goes and comes, never dance over that for having it,
Be good, Be harsh, Be bad with the concern person,
Love may become a funny word nowadays between us but its still God favorite,
People so scare of sharing that they stop themselves from doing it,
Some may laugh some may cry but we are still Nothing…
… Tomorrow may be there or it won’t come at all …
… Today may give result by tomorrow but what If I am not there…
… … there are a lot to say and write … but what if there is no one to listen and read it.
You, I may not be at all the same. right! but what is humanity all about then?
Sense in your work will not be thought in any school in this world, it has to grow and come up with your growth of maturity,
Work may be a passion, need, or hobby but it depends on you what is your work means to you?,
You may hate me but do I hate you?
You may listen to me but do I really want to talk?
People start their life from point A and reaching point B is not at all easy,
People fails in many things in life, that doesn’t bother me at all or that will never effect the respect or love which I have for them… but what feels bad that not trying to success in that particular task,
Hope and faith, these are the two things which most of the people are alive on believing in it…
… A message can be a word, sentence, or a emotion but here my messages took me to write this much of words and try to make myself clear about what I want to say. You may have only today, this hour, or this minute, what you gonna do in this time that really count.
… I wish you all a very happy new year and a life full of happiness and love with your family and friends …
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After 2 and Half years
Posted on July 13, 2011, by Jawed Amir, under Blog, General.
Went to Afghanistan in month of May and was there till end of June. I went to Afghanistan after 2 and half years and the moment I putted my first step out of the Kam Air plane on the Ground of Kabul International Airport, felt the cool breeze of Kabul and the temperature was 25C. I was still in the line where all the people were waiting to get the entry stamp on their passport when my turn came the officer searched for my name in computer in his cabin but as per him I was not there and then he asked me to join him in his cabin and identify myself because when he searched my name in his system there were 3 more photographs came under my passport no. and that creates an issue for me and for him. I saw myself among those photo in his system and in this situation he forgot to put entry stamp on my passport and even I run away like that. 
I went to my uncle house which is near by Airport, Dad was also there he came that day morning to Kabul from Herat City because of some family issues, met them all and was in Kabul for almost 10 days and then me and Dad went to Herat City and met mom and brother. Had a great time with brother and family after a long time, Herat City was having a warm climate and a burning sun during days and during evening the weather was awesome with a speedy wind blow. After few days we were ready with preparation for Brother’s Marriage in Kabul so Mom and Dad went to Kabul, me and brother left alone at home because we were supposed to go to Kabul 2 or 3 days before the marriage, and here at home also had lots of work to be done before we leave like making groom’s room and his bed with all those decoration and cleaning the house.
We went to Kabul and there was fun cause all our family friends and relatives were there at my uncle’s house and all were too much busy in singing and having fun out there, as we reached there then I suppose to go after my sister and her mother in law they were at my other uncle’s house which is very far, I went with my uncle there and then from there back to my sister’s house and from there taking sister with my back to my uncle’s house where I was before where all the relatives are gathered. The next day all the female category of my relatives were suppose to go to bride’s house and I went with them in a bus.. .haha .. yes in a bus, We came back by evening. The day was just amazing and fun, the next day me and brother has to go for shopping so we went and we did our shopping and took appointment for a saloon for tomorrow in Gulbahar Center (one of the newest and awesome Shopping center in Kabul and yes a costliest 
). The next day we went for saloon in the afternoon cause the wedding was going to start in the evening by 5:00 and the groom, bride, and others who went with bride to saloon which were the reception people so they has be to be there in wedding hall before people start to come, thanks to all we were on time. The wedding started and people started to come where I saw many of my dearest friends out there and thanks to all of them who came to that wedding.
The wedding was till 1:00 or 2:00 am then we went to uncle’s house which was near by wedding hall and we were there till 3:00 then me and Mom has to come back to my other uncle’s house which was near Airport so that we can reach on time for our flight that was on the same morning by 8:00. I was so sleepy and I went to sleep where Mom didn’t sleep at all cause it was almost 4:00 in the morning, she woke me up by 6:00 and we went to Airport there we waited for a long time till they announced the boarding and we (Mom and me) came to Herat City safe and happy, but very tired and sleepy too, as we reached home we went to sleep and when Mom wakes me up it was 8:30 pm yeah a hell of a sleep we had that day. We both came early because I have to make arrangements for the groom and bride and other relatives who are gonna come the next day to Herat City, so did all the arrangements and happily they also came back to Herat City with my sister in law. The wedding and all other things went so nice and smooth.
After few days I came back to India, and now I am here in Hyderabad, India and missing them so much.
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I still do
Posted on December 1, 2010, by Jawed Amir, under Blog, Love.
Life is beautiful and sweet. We all need love so desperately.
I am happy everyday for the life which I have but there is something missing which hurts me a lot and makes me to think about it, that is you, I wish I could forget you so easily and move on but I can not do that and every time I go through your words that you have said to me they make me cry and cry 
. No one can be the way you were and you are for me in my whole life, whoever comes in my life can not take your place in my heart which is a special one, wish I could see you now and look deeply into your eyes and see my picture there and tell you that how much I was missing you, how much I love you and how much I miss your love. My life is like hell, the day when you turn your face from me and said that I am the worst guy on this earth that did not hurt more than that you said that I Do Not Love You, which is not true I do love you I do love you so much. Maybe I could not tell you the way you wanted me to, maybe I could not earn your trust the way you wanted me to, maybe I could not love you the way you deserve it.
Today I went through your gifts they were all new to me every time I look at them every time I fall in love with you all over again and again I smell them maybe they don’t smell but I was looking for the smell of yours to give me a satisfaction to live my life.
I still can not say that I hate you, I still start my day with the name of yours on my lips, I look for you in my dreams every night, can not get you here dear. I miss those nights when you were love to come in my dreams and make me miss you during days but now days and nights I am missing you so much I just pray that ALLAH gives me the strength to come over this feeling cause this is just hell for me . I know you are not even thinking about me but its OK I know I do not deserve that also and I will never ever blame you for anything in my whole life till my death. I loved you, and I love you more than ever, I am not telling you to come back nor complaining – all I want you to be happy and I really wish that one day whether it is today, tomorrow you could forgive me for all those tears that I caused and for all those hard time that I caused in your life sweetie, forgive me for everything forgive me that I fall in love more than anyone else in this world.
Still do not know how people forget their beloved ones, cause for me it is not possible it is not even possible in dreams, can not even breath properly, can not even look into mirror to see my face – blaming myself for everything that you did not deserve but I caused and made them happened in your life.
Can not write anymore, my eyes are red full of tears and my hands are shivering if I move on writing I will not be able to make any sense out of it later.. lol, forgive me dear for everything… wish you a very happy life ahead sweetie, keep smiling and May ALLAH bless your life with lots of love and happiness. Aameen.
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I LOVE YOU!
Posted on October 16, 2010, by Jawed Amir, under Blog, Love.
I was happy with you my love. I was in love with you only.
There is no one that I could say ( I love You ) the way I tell you, I don’t know how many dreams I have seen of you and after all those prayers I finally got you in my life. Every day is starting with a smile of yours and ends with a blink of your eyes, every single hour I need you and every single minute I get so desperate to have you with me walking side by side looking at your eyes keeping your hands in mine and tell you that how deeply I am in love with you.
Because of you,
because of you I still believe in love,
because of you I still want to say I LOVE YOU,
because of you I need every moment of my life back which I spent without you,
because of you I love myself and I love everything about myself,
Just only because of you my love.
I feel so lucky with you and so happy. Please don’t take this from me and don’t make me lose you at this time of my life where I truly need you and truly want you to be mine, don’t make me beg just feel and understand and trust me what I am saying to you that I L O V E YOU like no one can ever do, I can’t see love anywhere else rather than with you,
don’t want to live without you,
can’t think straight when you are not around me,
I can’t find any sense in my words when you are angry on me,
I feel like killing myself when u stop talking to me,
I feel like I am no one in this world whenever you stop talking to me,
and I feel like I am responsible for every single mistake that I did or did not that happened in my life till now just that whenever a tear comes down from those stupid, sweet, lovely and those eyes which my whole life is in there.
Sometimes I hurt you but that is not on purpose, please forgive me for every single tear that comes from your eyes because of me or because of my acts and words, I always wanted to be a lover for you that never one had before and will never have but sometimes the time get wrong and taking my lovely words for you to a very misunderstanding world that makes you to have a wrong image of me (.
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I love you so so much Can’t say that I hate you even if you hurt me and if u say that you hate me but I can’t,… :-*.
Be my life Be my best friend be my eyes, be my heart, be my world, be my love, be my sweet little baby. .. .. .. be mine always and forever please. LOVE YOU ALWAYS.:-*
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It Hurts :( a lot !
Posted on July 5, 2010, by Jawed Amir, under Love.
I used to believe and I knew this, if I love someone that is truly from my heart and I will do anything for her. I used see lots of dreams about love and my feelings and I used to name it my dream girl, and I was in love with those dreams with that girl which I couldn’t see her face in dreams couldn’t make it how she looks. Every morning these feelings were new and I was in love with them I believed that there is someone waiting for me having lots of love only for me. I used to look up and search for her in college and whenever I went out I was searching for her listening to song on my ipod, but there was no one, one day I found her I loved her she loved me back but this love was not made for me…. but I was so deeply in love that I was hoping I might get another chance but I was wrong when I seriously asked her, Is she seeing me as her life partner? and the answer was NO. That time was like I should have something to kill myself but frankly friends I don’t have that courage to kill myself.
I was wishing that this is a nightmare wishing that somehow alarm will ring and I will wake up and find myself in bed but no unfortunately it was real and I have to face it, my eyes were full of tears, heart broken I couldn’t think straight, that what is that I should do next? and how I am gonna live with this. I wanted to cry and shout so hardly that God would come to know the pain in my heart, wanted to call God and ask why me? why this should happen to me always? … but there was me and the darkness of the night and a sweet silence which was killing me… I opened my eyes and tried to smile and forget about what just happened but heart is like a kid wanted to cry and cry and cry ( … … …
I am thanking God for every gift that he gifted me and my family but this will be my only one complain that why you didn’t wanted me to be in love? why you didn’t think of that how am I gonna live without love? how could you take away something which you always wants everyone to have it in there heart?…. and more more more (
How am I gonna live now? with this stupid thought that I failed for third time, two relation which I had they were also lovely, but you know what happen I got dumped…. I don’t know why I always failed in finding true love of my life? I used to dream about my dream girl and I was in love with those dreams at least they were not hurting me, hurt is the only thing which I always have in my luck in the path of having a true love, and now look at me trying to find the pieces of my heart and stick them together and pray to God to help me to come out of this depression. I still love love but why , why , why ? ? ? :(( ….